The mother of the Chinese student victim in the "Canadian Psycho" murder and dismemberment case says her "most unbearable pain" is that the killing is still watched online, she told Canada's public broadcaster.
"What a disaster and huge pain for our family," Zhigui Du said in an interview with the Canadian Broadcasting Corporation, sobbing.
"The most unbearable pain for me is that the video got posted on the Internet. People watched it over and over. It's like my son is being murdered again and again," she said.
"He was so passionate about life and so many beautiful things. Why did his life have to end? Why did he have to suffer so much? Why was that brutal video put on the Internet? And it was so hard for our family. My loving boy killed in that way".
Luka Rocco Magnotta, 29, last month pleaded not guilty to first degree murder and four other charges including committing indignities to a body, in the case.
Magnotta, who worked as an occasional porn actor and an escort, is alleged to have used an ice pick to stab Lin Jun -- a Chinese student at Montreal's Concordia University -- sometime between May 24-25.
The suspect is thought to have then carved up the victim's body, sexually abused the corpse and filmed the act, before posting the video on the Internet.
On May 29, police in Montreal discovered Lin's torso in a suitcase by the trash outside an apartment along a busy highway. The victim's severed hands and feet were then discovered to have been sent through the mail to government parties in Ottawa and to two schools in Vancouver. The head was later found in a Montreal park.
Magnotta was arrested in Germany after a global manhunt, and returned to Canada to face charges.
Du said she and her husband have been treated with "kindness" by the Canadian government, and have been shown sympathy and support since they arrived in Montreal following their son's grisly slaying.
But his brutal death has shattered the idealistic view of Canada that Lin had impressed on his mother, she added.
"We still believe that most people here are very kind, but this heinous crime happened in Canada. It's made me reconsider what kind of place this is," she told CBC.
Now when she walks down the street in Montreal sometimes she feels like "everyone looks like Magnotta. I live with so much fear."
Asked whether Jun Lin's father, Diran Lin, expected justice, he replied, "I hope so... I can only wish for it."